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Just Breathe…




What a month! Beginning this Friday, I will be, with the help of my family, getting the boys moved to college. MOVED. I have to stop and let that word settle in. I must be honest and tell you that I have already had a few “ugly” cries. It is not easy for mamas to let go of their babies, even when it is time for them to spread their wings. It has been a roller coaster ride, really this entire last year. We survived senior year, and that was a year of last “firsts.” And just now I realize that last year was the final moment for me to capture the “back to school” picture with my twins standing together. It is crazy how it is sometimes the little things which occur to you after the fact and bring you to your knees. I wish that I could deny that I am actually sitting on the couch writing these words as best I can, barely seeing through the tears. At the same time I think, we have worked for these days, and I have done my very best in raising these boys. They have been poured into by our entire family all these years. My mind has been running a million miles a minute and the words “I hope they do well,” “I hope they make good choices,” “I hope they are happy,” “I hope they are safe from physical and emotional harm” continually pass through my head and heart. I know that I will no longer be just a bedroom away to fix a problem if possible. Letting go is so hard. So tonight, I am trying to stop and breathe and gather perspective. There is a season for everything, right? Seasons change and this world and the people in it must transition. That is an age old fact even told to us by Solomon.